We all Need To work to make a living

We all need to work to make a living. I am trying to find some . Am I really trying to find some? Am I actually trying to avoid looking it in the eye even as it stares back at me ?

I don't know , but for all I know I am in a state of confusion , a state of continuous disbelief .

I know what I don't know and am clear regarding the things I am not clear. I know what I want because what I want is not what I want.

Time is my only hope . One day I will want what I want , know what what I should know and be what I should be.